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It's been awhile

Well guys it's been awhile since I last posted. I've been a really busy lady, It being summer and all. I love the summer, I wish it could last forever. I love having my kids home with me, and bbqing!! I know school is just around the corner, so I want to make the summer last as long as I can and savor every moment!

Stone Temple Pilots - Creep

Nervous and Anxious

So, I have to go see a neurologist tomorrow and a cardiologist Wednesday. I am getting kinda nervous and anxious at the same time. I have been having panic attacks, migranes, back pain and rapid heart rate episodes for going on 8 months now and nobody can tell me what is wrong with me. I have had over 10 EKG's done, many blood tests, many urine test, chest x-rays. Been misdiagnosed with athsma, which turns out I dont have and I am glad about that. Finally found a doctor who is taking the time to figure this out instead of atomatically lableing me with panic disorder and medicating me, which only made me sicker. I am nervous about what I might find out, but at the same time that maybe, just maybe I will get answers to what has been plaguing me for all this time. I want answers and to get back to being normal again, I am just praying to God that it is something not too serious. At the same time I am scared that they will find nothing wrong with me and I will be back at square one again. I think living with the idea that I dont know what is going on with my body is worse than finding out I have something bad. Anyways, I hope I am atleast going in the right direction and that there will be a light at the end of the tunnel soon. It is very difficult to live my daily life like this, but somehow I make it through and will continue to do so, till I no longer can.

"Bitterness is a disease, it robs your joy and stops you from bringing your heart to greater places. Letting go of what you have no control over is as necessary as taking a breath. You have a choice, hold on to pain, or free yourself from it. A lesson learned need not be repeated or carried on your shoulders forever. You are meant for better, happier things." ~ Dori Roberts ♥

A Poem

Panic Attack Dream Theater

All wound up
On the edge
Terrified

Sleep disturbed
Restless mind
Petrified

Bouts of fear
Permeate
All I see

Heightening
Nervousness
Threatens me

I am paralyzed
So afraid to die

Caught off guard
Warning signs
Never show

Tension strikes
Choking me
Worries grow

Why do I feel so numb?
Is it something to do with where I come from?
Should this be fight or flight?
I don't know why I'm constantly so uptight

Rapid heartbeat pounding through my chest
Agitated body in distress
I feel like I'm in danger
Daily life is strangled by my stress

A stifling surge
Shooting through all my veins
Extreme apprehension
Suddenly I'm insane

Lost all hope for redemption
A grave situation desperate at best

SLEEP!

I really need to get on a decent sleeping schedule. My fiance has been working 2nd shift for the past couple of months and I find myself unable to sleep without knowing he is in the house. So here I sit, awake, till the wee hours of the night. My mind races with all kinds of thoughts and I just cannot settle. I already have pretty bad anxiety and lack of sleep does not help the situation. I tried calming CD's as well as other methods to clear my mind and it just doesnt work. I am not at all a pill taker, so I refuse to take sleeping pills. I wish he could just get on 1st shift, but that is not possible. On a more positive note, I try to keep myself busy with knitting and other things to keep my mind occupied from the fact I am alone at home with the kids in the house all night. I think I am doing a good job considering my anxiety level is through the roof. Anyways, I am going to try and go to sleep again after I try and soothe myself with a nice hot cup of cocoa. At least blogging this helped for a few minutes...hahaha. Woo! Sleep here I come hopefully ;)